i think i have to delete most of this...i'm just too embarassed by the quality. probably will keep some of the ones i'm somehow proud of and the more sentimental ones...this site has become kind of useless to me except for some warm memories. i spent some time accidentally browsing my old banned account...the saddest thing is how humiliated and ashamed i would be by the things on it if it were still up now, but at least i was having some kind of fun and getting some kind of response (and not too apathetic to give my response to others)...was i supposed to be getting "better" over this time?...i miss my inspiration and enthusiasm, because at least those were there at one point, as for technical prowess, i never possessed it and still don't. at least i had the shamelessness and audacity to enjoy myself...for the past few months(years?) i've been using this account for crap storage, just putting whatever stupid shit i scribble here for laughs...but that's gotten too sad for me. so...salut...and the ones of you that are drawing...keep drawing.

how fucking self-involved of me to even write this shit as if someone needs to know. well we all need an outlet don't we?... (some wayyy too much.)

cheers.